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New Year, New Me?

For so many people a new year means to reinvent themselves. Do more exercise. 
Read more books. Go vegan. Lose weight.

This was me too.

"Starting tomorrow. I'm doing to do this." I would tell myself. "Definitely tomorrow." Fully aware that I could start today and get the ball rolling. But no... Always tomorrow.

I think that this is the thing. We tell ourselves that we are doing to things the next day and that day is going to define 
the rest of ourselves.

But it doesn't.

Two weeks in and it's the same story. Tomorrow. Always tomorrow.

Why never today? Honestly, I don't know because we tell ourselves that we fail one day then we have to stay again but why can't we just continue. At the end of the day, we are human.

Life isn't smooth sailing. We are going to make mistakes and more importantly, we are going to learn from them because that's what we do. That's what we should do.

So to answer my own question: this new year is not the new me.

I like who I am. Am I perfect? No, but who is. I am going to spend the year being a better person. Absolutely. But I want these to improve me forever not just to forget about. I'm going to make mistakes and I am aware of that but these do not define me and I am OK with that.

So in 2020, it's a new year but the same me. 

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